Contentment

I have been experiencing something pretty unusual for me.

I am content.

I am completely happy where God has me right now.

Maybe its because I know that I will be in India soon (can't wait for this summer!!!) or maybe its because I'm finally truly trusting in God's plan for me and seeing the good that is coming from waiting on His timing.

But I am happy being here.

I don't usually feel this way. I am an impatient person. When I figured out the summer before my senior year of high school that India is where I'm supposed to be, that's where I wanted to be. Right then. God had other plans.

He didn't want me to go that Christmas, I don't know why. I do know that by waiting, when I did go, it was everything that I had hoped and thought that it would be and so much more. Maybe He knew that if I went that Christmas, I would be going even more crazy waiting to go back than I am right now. I don't know, but I do know that His way is best.

But now I have been. I now I want to go back so bad sometimes, it hurts.

A few of my friends are trying so hard right now to figure out what they're majors will be and what they will do with their lives. I know what to do with my life. I have known for a while now and its hard not being able to do it.

But I trust.

I trust that there is a reason that I'm supposed to be here right now. I trust that there are things that I am learning that will be so important when my time to go finally comes. I just trust.

I've been learning and growing so much in the past few months, it blows my mind. I have so many amazing people pouring into my life in so many different ways. I get to be a small part of several wonderful families from the Summit and get to spend hours loving and being loved by some of the cutest children in the world. When I show up at the Greear's house, little RL comes running to me with the biggest smile on her face. And I have the absolute best parents in the world and the greatest siblings a girl could ask for.

I can't wait to go to India, both this summer and for however long after I graduate, but for now, God wants me here and I am happy to be here.