Never Enough

"Everything always gets over and nothing is ever enough."

-From the Mixed up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler

I read this book with some students about a month ago and came across this quote and it struck me.

If I had to use one sentence to sum up how I feel right now, it would be this quote. 

Everything always gets over and nothing is ever enough. 

I am in a phase of life where it feels like everything is ending. I finish student teaching on Friday (my last LDOC), graduate on May 12, move out of my Chapel Hill apartment soon after that, and move to India on May 24. 

Everything always gets over and nothing is ever enough. 

4 years at UNC seems like a long time. It certainly seemed like it was going to be very long when I moved into that first dorm room, went to that first class, wrote that first paper. It felt like those 4 years would never end, that they would stretch on and on. That it would be forever before I would be able to go to India. 

Then I closed my eyes and now I'm here. Less than 3 weeks away from graduation. 1 month away from my first extended time in India. 

Where did these 4 years go? When did they fly by?

Freshman year, I was itching to graduate. I was ready to go. I hated the thought of being in Chapel Hill for 4 years. 

Now I'm dragging my feet. I can't believe that it is time to go already. I can't believe that it is time to leave the safe bubble of Chapel Hill, leave my friends, my family, my church, and go to the other side of the world. 

Everything always gets over and nothing is ever enough. 

I am excited to go to India. I am excited to start this new chapter of my life. I am excited to see where my friends are going and everything that God has planned for them. 

But I am not excited to leave. 

If I could live in India and Chapel Hill at the same, oh my goodness, I would! If we could all do our awesome things, while still being all together, oh that would be perfect! 

Unfortunately, that is not how it works. Everything has to come to an end. For the next part of my life to begin, this part has to end. And it is sad, it is hard. I don't want to leave. 

Everything always gets over and nothing is ever enough. 

On a completely different note- when I first read this quote, I'll admit, my first thought was about Harry Potter. It all had to end but wouldn't we just love one, two, or ten more books?